Thursday, July 29
What I said in the last few days still stands. I hate funfairs!! Never again will I get involved in it!
With Sherlyn gone I have no idea how to plan things! I never did this before. How the hell would I know what to do. I was the only one doing everything for the food stall. I ordered the satay. I talked and negotiated with Linda. My mum bought everything for the kuniyaku. My parents bought and paid for all the stupid snacks. They helped me price everything. When the alumni had problems with the arragements they would call me and ask ask ask. I dont know I dont know I dont know! Stop asking me!!! Its always me, me, me!! Why did I have to be the i/c in the first place?!?! Even though its only a couple of days away I have so many things to worry about. I have to get everything for the satay and whatever. I cant ask the class because can they be relied on in the first place?? I get tickets from Ms Wong and pay for it first, and got reprimanded by my dad. Its even raining now.
I wanted to get the barbecue grill from Isabelle because she would have a tough time bringing it to school cos her car's too small. But my unc doesnt know where that place is and I have no choice but to ask Isabelle to bring it to school. sigh. Want to help also cannot. I hate funfairs. I really do. The class doesnt care about it at all. What does God expect me to do. I cant do everything by myself.
With Sherlyn gone I have no idea how to plan things! I never did this before. How the hell would I know what to do. I was the only one doing everything for the food stall. I ordered the satay. I talked and negotiated with Linda. My mum bought everything for the kuniyaku. My parents bought and paid for all the stupid snacks. They helped me price everything. When the alumni had problems with the arragements they would call me and ask ask ask. I dont know I dont know I dont know! Stop asking me!!! Its always me, me, me!! Why did I have to be the i/c in the first place?!?! Even though its only a couple of days away I have so many things to worry about. I have to get everything for the satay and whatever. I cant ask the class because can they be relied on in the first place?? I get tickets from Ms Wong and pay for it first, and got reprimanded by my dad. Its even raining now.
I wanted to get the barbecue grill from Isabelle because she would have a tough time bringing it to school cos her car's too small. But my unc doesnt know where that place is and I have no choice but to ask Isabelle to bring it to school. sigh. Want to help also cannot. I hate funfairs. I really do. The class doesnt care about it at all. What does God expect me to do. I cant do everything by myself.
michi ]|[ 17:39
Wednesday, July 28
There was this debating finals today. It was class 3D and 3B I think. Yeah. Johnston was the preposition, and the topic was on "this house belives that captital punishment should be demolished". We were supposed to take down notes, cos there was an essay on it to be handed up next week. I copied down notes while listening.
And Johnston was the star of the debate today. He rocked man! Everyone seemed to think so as there as a big applause after he finished speaking. He has a tinch of British accent to his Singapore one, and he talked real fast, making as many points as possible. He rebutted the opposition side terrificly and spoke with as little mistakes as possible. He was superb. His side won and there was no mistake who would be the best speaker. I listened to him with my jaw wide hanging down. I want to listen to him again!! lol. Johnston rocks!! haha. x)
And Johnston was the star of the debate today. He rocked man! Everyone seemed to think so as there as a big applause after he finished speaking. He has a tinch of British accent to his Singapore one, and he talked real fast, making as many points as possible. He rebutted the opposition side terrificly and spoke with as little mistakes as possible. He was superb. His side won and there was no mistake who would be the best speaker. I listened to him with my jaw wide hanging down. I want to listen to him again!! lol. Johnston rocks!! haha. x)
michi ]|[ 20:42
Tuesday, July 27
"Oh, Michelle will do it, since she is the i/c", "oh, just leave everything to Michelle, she will do it cos she is in charge", "no, I cant help you because I am already helping the food stall", "I want out of the food committee because there is someone in the committee I dont like".
Argh!! I need $84 by Saturday, and it just got raised to $210!! Where am I going to get the money?! Everyone wants to be in the first shift, so they can enjoy themselves later in the afternoon. Everyone cant be in the first shift!! It will be overcrowded. And there wont be anyone to man the stall on the second shift. No one is co-operating. Xiu Feng offered to help me, but there is nothing for her to do. I need ice-boxes and no one is providing them. When Ms Wong asked whether anyone had ice boxes, everyone ignored her. No one wants to contribute financially to the foodstall and we need money.
The brownies taste like chocolate cake and the chips we bought to sell will be soggy by Saturday. Thursday is the day we have to show the roster and the menu and the posters and banner, but we dont have anything. When the bell rings to mark the end of the discussion everyone just stalks out of the room without a word. And Ms Wong would shut all the windows and lights when we were still using the white-board. Argh. I want to quit being the i/c. When Sherlyn left no one was there to help me. Sherlyn was the main one who decided things.
Oh no!! I havent buy the water yet!! Oh, *&^%$%^&!
I hatefunfairs!! Grrr.
Argh!! I need $84 by Saturday, and it just got raised to $210!! Where am I going to get the money?! Everyone wants to be in the first shift, so they can enjoy themselves later in the afternoon. Everyone cant be in the first shift!! It will be overcrowded. And there wont be anyone to man the stall on the second shift. No one is co-operating. Xiu Feng offered to help me, but there is nothing for her to do. I need ice-boxes and no one is providing them. When Ms Wong asked whether anyone had ice boxes, everyone ignored her. No one wants to contribute financially to the foodstall and we need money.
The brownies taste like chocolate cake and the chips we bought to sell will be soggy by Saturday. Thursday is the day we have to show the roster and the menu and the posters and banner, but we dont have anything. When the bell rings to mark the end of the discussion everyone just stalks out of the room without a word. And Ms Wong would shut all the windows and lights when we were still using the white-board. Argh. I want to quit being the i/c. When Sherlyn left no one was there to help me. Sherlyn was the main one who decided things.
Oh no!! I havent buy the water yet!! Oh, *&^%$%^&!
I hate
michi ]|[ 19:41
Monday, July 26
I just read Sherlyn's blog, and I think she was purty upset about her friends and all. I know her mood now. Her typings were all in small letters, like how I'd type when I was upset. Its a no wonder she couldnt wait to get to Ubin. Cheer up, Sherlyn.
I was on the bus going back today, and I was so deep in thought. I thought of ******, and I was on the verge of sms-ing him, asking if I could have the neos of me and him, if he still has them. But then I thought, what was the use. Will that bring him back to me. I suddenly remembered meeting him before school, at 6+ in the morning, so he could just see me for a couple of mins. I left as soon as the bus came, which was almost immediately.
I was so desperate for money for the cost of the satay for Family Day. I asked everyone if their parents could contribute anything to the food stall. I begged and begged Aloysius. Then Xiu Feng told me to pray and ask God to provide it. Then I thought, if Daniel had his prayers answered that time, why shouldnt mine be? I was a wreck of nerves that I totally forgot praying. Doink. Silly me. Oh well. Thats it for today then.
I was on the bus going back today, and I was so deep in thought. I thought of ******, and I was on the verge of sms-ing him, asking if I could have the neos of me and him, if he still has them. But then I thought, what was the use. Will that bring him back to me. I suddenly remembered meeting him before school, at 6+ in the morning, so he could just see me for a couple of mins. I left as soon as the bus came, which was almost immediately.
I was so desperate for money for the cost of the satay for Family Day. I asked everyone if their parents could contribute anything to the food stall. I begged and begged Aloysius. Then Xiu Feng told me to pray and ask God to provide it. Then I thought, if Daniel had his prayers answered that time, why shouldnt mine be? I was a wreck of nerves that I totally forgot praying. Doink. Silly me. Oh well. Thats it for today then.
michi ]|[ 21:23
Sunday, July 25
Love is the only thing that we can carry with us when we go, and it makes the end so easy
-Louisa May Alcott
-Louisa May Alcott
Merry Christmas, My Friend
"I will never forget you," the old man said. A tear rolled down his leathery cheek, "I'm getting old. I cant take care of you anymore."
With his head tilted to one side, Monsieur DuPree watched his master. "Woof, woof! Woof, woof!" He wagged his tail back and forth, wondering, What is he talking about?
"I cant take care of myself anymore, let alone take care of you." The old man cleared his throat. He pulled a hankie from his pocket and blew his nose with a mighty blast.
"Soon, I'll move to an old-age home, and I'm sorry to say, you cant come along. They dont allow dogs there, you know." Bent over from age, the old man limped over to Monsieur DuPree abd stroked the dog's head.
"Dont worry, my friend. We'll find a home. We'll find a nice new home for you." As an afterthought he added, "Why, with your good looks, we'll have no trouble at all. Anyone would be proud to own such a fine dog."
Monsieur DuPree wagged his tail really hard and strutted up and down the kitchen floor. For a moment, the familiar musky scent of the old man mingling with the odor of greasy food gave the dog a feeling of well-being. But then a sense of dread took hold again. His tail hung between his legs and he stood very still.
"Come here." With great difficulty, the old man knelt down in the floor and lovingly pulled Monsieur DuPree close to him. He tied a ribbon around the dog's neck with a hugr red bow, and then he attached a note to it. What does it say? Monsieur DuPree wondered.
"It says," the old man read aloud, "Merry Christmas! My name is Monsieur DuPree. For breakfast, I like bacon and eggs - even cornflakes will do. For dinner, I prefer mashed potatoes and some meat. Thats all. I eat just two meals a day. In return, I will be your most loyal friend." "Woof, woof! Woof, woof!" Monsieur Dupree was confused, and his eyes begged, what's going on?
The old man blew his nose into his hankie once more. Then hanging on to a chair, he pulled himself up from the floor. He buttoned his overcoat, reached for the dog's leash and softly said, "come here, my friend." He opened the door against a gust of cold air and stepped outside, pulling the dog with him. Dusk was beginning to fall. Monsieur DuPree pulled back. He didnt want to go.
"Dont make this any harder for me. I promise you, you'll be much better off with someone else."
The street was deserted. Leaning into the wintry air, the old man and his dog pushed on. It began to snow.
After a very long time, they came upon an old Victorian house surrounded by tall trees, which were swaying and humming to the wind. Shivering in the cold, they appraised the house. Glimmering lights adorned every window, and a muffled sound of a Christmas song was carried on the wind.
"This will be a nice home for you," the old man said, choking on his words. He bent down and unleashed his dog, then opened the gate slowly, so that it wouldnt creak. "Go on now. Go up the steps and scratch on the door."
Monsieur DuPree looked from the house to his master and back again to the house. He did not understand. "Woof, woof! Woof, woof!"
"Go on." The old man gave the dog a shove. "I have no use for you anymore," he said in a gruff voice. "Get going now!"
Monsieur DuPree was hurt. He thought his master didnt love him anymore. He didnt understand that, instead, the old man loved him very much but could no longer care for him. Slowly, the dog stragged toward the house and up and steps. He scratched with one paw at the front door. "Woof, woof! Woof, woof!"
Looking back, he saw his master step behind a tree just as someone from inside turned the doorknob. A little boy appeared, framed in the doorway by the warm light coming from within. When he saw Monsieur DuPree, the little boy threw his arms into the air and shouted with delight, "Oh, boy! Mom and Dad, come see what Santa brought!"
Through teary eyes, the old man watched from behind the tree as the boy's mother read the note. Then she tenderly pulled Monsieur DuPree inside. Smiling, the old man wiped his eyes with the sleeve of his cold, damp coat. Then he disappeared into the night, whispering, "Merry Christmas, my friend."
-Christa Holder Ocker
With his head tilted to one side, Monsieur DuPree watched his master. "Woof, woof! Woof, woof!" He wagged his tail back and forth, wondering, What is he talking about?
"I cant take care of myself anymore, let alone take care of you." The old man cleared his throat. He pulled a hankie from his pocket and blew his nose with a mighty blast.
"Soon, I'll move to an old-age home, and I'm sorry to say, you cant come along. They dont allow dogs there, you know." Bent over from age, the old man limped over to Monsieur DuPree abd stroked the dog's head.
"Dont worry, my friend. We'll find a home. We'll find a nice new home for you." As an afterthought he added, "Why, with your good looks, we'll have no trouble at all. Anyone would be proud to own such a fine dog."
Monsieur DuPree wagged his tail really hard and strutted up and down the kitchen floor. For a moment, the familiar musky scent of the old man mingling with the odor of greasy food gave the dog a feeling of well-being. But then a sense of dread took hold again. His tail hung between his legs and he stood very still.
"Come here." With great difficulty, the old man knelt down in the floor and lovingly pulled Monsieur DuPree close to him. He tied a ribbon around the dog's neck with a hugr red bow, and then he attached a note to it. What does it say? Monsieur DuPree wondered.
"It says," the old man read aloud, "Merry Christmas! My name is Monsieur DuPree. For breakfast, I like bacon and eggs - even cornflakes will do. For dinner, I prefer mashed potatoes and some meat. Thats all. I eat just two meals a day. In return, I will be your most loyal friend." "Woof, woof! Woof, woof!" Monsieur Dupree was confused, and his eyes begged, what's going on?
The old man blew his nose into his hankie once more. Then hanging on to a chair, he pulled himself up from the floor. He buttoned his overcoat, reached for the dog's leash and softly said, "come here, my friend." He opened the door against a gust of cold air and stepped outside, pulling the dog with him. Dusk was beginning to fall. Monsieur DuPree pulled back. He didnt want to go.
"Dont make this any harder for me. I promise you, you'll be much better off with someone else."
The street was deserted. Leaning into the wintry air, the old man and his dog pushed on. It began to snow.
After a very long time, they came upon an old Victorian house surrounded by tall trees, which were swaying and humming to the wind. Shivering in the cold, they appraised the house. Glimmering lights adorned every window, and a muffled sound of a Christmas song was carried on the wind.
"This will be a nice home for you," the old man said, choking on his words. He bent down and unleashed his dog, then opened the gate slowly, so that it wouldnt creak. "Go on now. Go up the steps and scratch on the door."
Monsieur DuPree looked from the house to his master and back again to the house. He did not understand. "Woof, woof! Woof, woof!"
"Go on." The old man gave the dog a shove. "I have no use for you anymore," he said in a gruff voice. "Get going now!"
Monsieur DuPree was hurt. He thought his master didnt love him anymore. He didnt understand that, instead, the old man loved him very much but could no longer care for him. Slowly, the dog stragged toward the house and up and steps. He scratched with one paw at the front door. "Woof, woof! Woof, woof!"
Looking back, he saw his master step behind a tree just as someone from inside turned the doorknob. A little boy appeared, framed in the doorway by the warm light coming from within. When he saw Monsieur DuPree, the little boy threw his arms into the air and shouted with delight, "Oh, boy! Mom and Dad, come see what Santa brought!"
Through teary eyes, the old man watched from behind the tree as the boy's mother read the note. Then she tenderly pulled Monsieur DuPree inside. Smiling, the old man wiped his eyes with the sleeve of his cold, damp coat. Then he disappeared into the night, whispering, "Merry Christmas, my friend."
-Christa Holder Ocker
michi ]|[ 17:45
Saturday, July 24
Cool, this has new stuff on and everything. Out of boredom I tried doing that name quiz Gab "specialises" in. And guess what I got, I got Krista. Why does everyone get Krista?? Lol. I dont like that name though. I prefer my name. Lol. I'm talking crap. Really.
Matthew and Sherlyn're leaving for camp for a week in one day. Geez. Gonna miss them. Things wont be the same without the two of them around, I know it. And they get to miss school for 5 days!! I wanna go too.. =(
I'm really gonna miss them. Things are gonna get real quiet.
And didja see Bensee's face? So many pimples!! Even Mark says so. Give him another year and I'd bet he'd have gone through all the girls in Fairfield. I cant believe I was stuck on him for 4 months. I was really crazy about him back then. Well I'm glad thats over.
Matthew and Sherlyn're leaving for camp for a week in one day. Geez. Gonna miss them. Things wont be the same without the two of them around, I know it. And they get to miss school for 5 days!! I wanna go too.. =(
I'm really gonna miss them. Things are gonna get real quiet.
And didja see Bensee's face? So many pimples!! Even Mark says so. Give him another year and I'd bet he'd have gone through all the girls in Fairfield. I cant believe I was stuck on him for 4 months. I was really crazy about him back then. Well I'm glad thats over.
michi ]|[ 21:33
Thursday, July 22
Man I have to copy this blasted chapter three times just because I didnt bring my textbook today. Argh. I've copied it once, and going on to the next one. I wonder why I am so unlucky, to have to copy such a long essay. Which is like, what, three foolscap papers. Oh well. How can I complain. It was my own carelessness that got me into this.
Had the mural. And I stoned for three hours. Walau, Ms Lim rejected the design AGAIN!! Argh. I wonder whats with her and her expectations. Amanda had to re-design the design like, 4 times. Good grief. Gab came home and complained to my dad. Lol. He jokingly said if she did that again he's gonna go and scold her at the next meeting. Lol. He's in the same function or something as her, and would probably see her, say what, 2 times a week? I dunno.
And I miss the old times. I really do. =(
Had the mural. And I stoned for three hours. Walau, Ms Lim rejected the design AGAIN!! Argh. I wonder whats with her and her expectations. Amanda had to re-design the design like, 4 times. Good grief. Gab came home and complained to my dad. Lol. He jokingly said if she did that again he's gonna go and scold her at the next meeting. Lol. He's in the same function or something as her, and would probably see her, say what, 2 times a week? I dunno.
And I miss the old times. I really do. =(
michi ]|[ 19:59
Wednesday, July 21
Geez. Sherlyn wasnt herself this afternoon when she met us for the tile-painting. I think maybe she was in a bad mood, but I know she was rather irritated at something. So I did my best in staying out of her way.
And LINDA FROM PIE CALLED AGAIN!! I avoided her call on purpose, not wanting to withstand her nagging again. But never did I realise she'd call my mom. My mom being my mom, handed me the phone [what else]. Sian lar. She talked for about 5 mins, which was a first.
And I have a blasted cold that wont go away. Alite lar. Thats it for today. Goodnite, all.
And LINDA FROM PIE CALLED AGAIN!! I avoided her call on purpose, not wanting to withstand her nagging again. But never did I realise she'd call my mom. My mom being my mom, handed me the phone [what else]. Sian lar. She talked for about 5 mins, which was a first.
And I have a blasted cold that wont go away. Alite lar. Thats it for today. Goodnite, all.
michi ]|[ 21:51
Tuesday, July 20
We lost the debate today. Shucks man. I think Ms Wong was rather disappointed. But never mind. My dad said to learn from it, be it win or lose. He says when you lose you learn more. Well, maybe.
Nothing much to say bout today. Felt so restless. And, Lawrence so shuai! =D But I wont suffer a nose-bleed like Sherlyn. Sherlyn ar, Sherlyn.
Never mind. I have something to make me happy. ALEX KAVA'S SPLIT SECOND!! =) =) =) Triple happiness. I've been dying to find out what happens to Albert Stucky. He's a stinky guy, going around killing innocent kids like that. haha I'm mad, I've been writing this in my online diary as well as here. Well. Wanna gloat in Gab's face. She was hunting high and low for it and I stumbled upon it without realising dad had bought that book. Yayy. I can find out what happened. hehe. Lalala~ I have it and Gab doesnt. =) Nyah.
Geez I'm soooo childish.
Nothing much to say bout today. Felt so restless. And, Lawrence so shuai! =D But I wont suffer a nose-bleed like Sherlyn. Sherlyn ar, Sherlyn.
Never mind. I have something to make me happy. ALEX KAVA'S SPLIT SECOND!! =) =) =) Triple happiness. I've been dying to find out what happens to Albert Stucky. He's a stinky guy, going around killing innocent kids like that. haha I'm mad, I've been writing this in my online diary as well as here. Well. Wanna gloat in Gab's face. She was hunting high and low for it and I stumbled upon it without realising dad had bought that book. Yayy. I can find out what happened. hehe. Lalala~ I have it and Gab doesnt. =) Nyah.
Geez I'm soooo childish.
michi ]|[ 18:01
Sunday, July 18
Afterr eading all my past entries I felt as if my heart was as fickle as someone desperate. I hate this. Maybe Jon was right all along. If only I could I would erase my entire past and live life as it is, with no memories. be it horrid or beautiful. Life is fulfilling. Why spoil it with a couple of sad memories?
Some tell me to wait. Some tell me to forget him. I dont want to know other's opinions, I just want to know God's. His choice for me. Thats all I'm lacking and needing now. Just a word, "wait" or "forget". The next time I hear either of these words, I will follow it, taking it as though its God's way of telling me. I'm really desperate for an answer.
Some tell me to wait. Some tell me to forget him. I dont want to know other's opinions, I just want to know God's. His choice for me. Thats all I'm lacking and needing now. Just a word, "wait" or "forget". The next time I hear either of these words, I will follow it, taking it as though its God's way of telling me. I'm really desperate for an answer.
michi ]|[ 13:48
Saturday, July 17
Did Gab's quiz on names. I got this name:
Lol. Anwww..
SLGFOT!! The play rocks!! Lol. And Sherlyn was singing. I thought it was Joyce all along. >.< Missed that then. I wanna go again. Lol.
Starting as rather boring. The words from Zi Yang [I think] were rather muffled and the echos didnt help. He had had many lines too. Wonder how they managed to memorize everything. Maybe its due to the countless rehearsals. Before starting, when Gab saw the tree move a little, and she totally freaked. She tugged at my sweatshirt and sorta whimpered. Its just some play, Gab. Tsk. Bring out your guts a little. It wont hurt and it certainly wont hurt for me.
But overall it was great. Sherlyn spotted Xiu Feng first because of her bag. I thnk it practically glowed in the dark. Lol. Sherlyn beckoned for me to come up to the stage after she took her bows. I didnt lar. Shy. Lol. Sherlyn's fave word. I gave her a ridiculously expensive rose which cost me $1.50. But never mind lar. My mom paid for that.
Got a scolding from my mom about the stupid satay thing. Argh. Not my problem man. I'm only trying ta help.
Lol. Anwww..
SLGFOT!! The play rocks!! Lol. And Sherlyn was singing. I thought it was Joyce all along. >.< Missed that then. I wanna go again. Lol.
Starting as rather boring. The words from Zi Yang [I think] were rather muffled and the echos didnt help. He had had many lines too. Wonder how they managed to memorize everything. Maybe its due to the countless rehearsals. Before starting, when Gab saw the tree move a little, and she totally freaked. She tugged at my sweatshirt and sorta whimpered. Its just some play, Gab. Tsk. Bring out your guts a little. It wont hurt and it certainly wont hurt for me.
But overall it was great. Sherlyn spotted Xiu Feng first because of her bag. I thnk it practically glowed in the dark. Lol. Sherlyn beckoned for me to come up to the stage after she took her bows. I didnt lar. Shy. Lol. Sherlyn's fave word. I gave her a ridiculously expensive rose which cost me $1.50. But never mind lar. My mom paid for that.
Got a scolding from my mom about the stupid satay thing. Argh. Not my problem man. I'm only trying ta help.
michi ]|[ 11:21
Thursday, July 15
Walau. Your ego is bursting!! Toopid. I just got released from an exhausting day of stoning and you come gloating right in front of me. Whatever lah you. I know you're better than me. I know, I know, I know! I reply unenthusiastically, and you dont get the hint I want you to shaddup. You wouldnt get it even if it was dancing in front of you wearing Dobby's tea-cosy. Bah.
michi ]|[ 21:42
Monday, July 12
I desperately had to do my research for art. The stupid exhibition ended so damn late and I had to come home and face Danielle's long face. Agh. Sit at the computer table with Msn on and everything and do homework there. I asked if I could use the com, she asked why couldnt I use the Apple computer, so I told her I needed to use the printer for work. She acted like she suddenly remembered that she had to use it too, and went to print Lindsay Lohan and Emma Watson pics. Okay so I sat there and waited. Wah piang wait and wait and wait. I was already rather pissed. She was this close to making me yell at her. Hada ask my ah ma to chase her off the com for me. =D I got my way in the end. But now I feel rather guilty. But Sherlyn was rite in sayin she was downright spoiled. She even had the cheek to scold me an asshole. Still wan to put your Msn account to auto-sign in. Whenever I am online you are too. And your pesky friends keep saying hi. PLEASE think of others.
Goeg was a "free" lesson as Toh didnt come. The sub guy was called Ezekiel Tan. Sherlyn, seated opposite me, turned and looked at me, scaring the hell outta me. Scary you know. I was doing my Physics when she decided to scare me. She tot it was Gab's Eze. Lol. If it was I'd have long went to kick his ass. Gah. Never mind. Shouldn't talk like a barbarian. I'm a lady. Lol. Must live up to my image. [Sherlyn, shhhh. Dun snort =)]
Went to the exhibition. Saw a couple of sadistic paintings. Saw one that shows a live chicken torn apart by its limbs. Blood and limbs were strewn all over. The eyes were suggesting it was still alive, I could see. Ugh gross. I saw it and I nearly barfed out my larb biscuits.
SHUmei was singing this song that split Kristal's, Jinli's, Gab's and my sides. This lameee song she made up in a couple of minutes. Laughed myself hoarse. Gab was banging the floor to control herself from laughing out loud. I mean, it was like a museum, so must keep quiet abit.
Batik GOLD, "Celebration" done by Eunice Chan of Fairfield Methodist Secondary School. hehe. So proud of Fairfield. =D
Well. Tink I'll redo my Batik piece. After seeing hers, I know why Mdm Lim didnt approve of my work. It was really amateur compared to hers. Geez. Such talent. Jealousy's coming out my ears.
AHHH! Pins and needles!!
Alite someone gag me with a spoon please.
Goeg was a "free" lesson as Toh didnt come. The sub guy was called Ezekiel Tan. Sherlyn, seated opposite me, turned and looked at me, scaring the hell outta me. Scary you know. I was doing my Physics when she decided to scare me. She tot it was Gab's Eze. Lol. If it was I'd have long went to kick his ass. Gah. Never mind. Shouldn't talk like a barbarian. I'm a lady. Lol. Must live up to my image. [Sherlyn, shhhh. Dun snort =)]
Went to the exhibition. Saw a couple of sadistic paintings. Saw one that shows a live chicken torn apart by its limbs. Blood and limbs were strewn all over. The eyes were suggesting it was still alive, I could see. Ugh gross. I saw it and I nearly barfed out my larb biscuits.
SHUmei was singing this song that split Kristal's, Jinli's, Gab's and my sides. This lameee song she made up in a couple of minutes. Laughed myself hoarse. Gab was banging the floor to control herself from laughing out loud. I mean, it was like a museum, so must keep quiet abit.
Batik GOLD, "Celebration" done by Eunice Chan of Fairfield Methodist Secondary School. hehe. So proud of Fairfield. =D
Well. Tink I'll redo my Batik piece. After seeing hers, I know why Mdm Lim didnt approve of my work. It was really amateur compared to hers. Geez. Such talent. Jealousy's coming out my ears.
AHHH! Pins and needles!!
Alite someone gag me with a spoon please.
michi ]|[ 19:13
Sunday, July 11
Just got home from Xiu Feng's church. =)
I had told my grandma to wake me up at 7, so I would have enough time to get there. But she forgot and I woke up at 8. I jumped out of bed, eyes stinging from the tiredness. I asked my grandma what happened, and she said she forgot, and sorry. I went back to my room all pissed and upset. I was so looking forward to going to Xiu Feng's church. Furthermore, Isabelle was gonna be there. I was sitting on my bed all upset, and tears started running down my cheeks. Then I thought, I could get there in time if I hurried. I mean, no point sitting there and getting all upset, rite? So I changed, took my Bible and ran to the station.
Got there in bout 30 mins. I was rather late, but Isabelle's dad was there to save the day. He brought us there in his car. Thank God for not making us late.
So we worshipped and listened to the sermon. The pastor was rather funny and Isabelle and I kept laughing. It was raining when we got outside, so the three of us crammed under one small umbrella. Xiu Feng was in the middle so she was as dry as the desert while me and Isabelle were soaked to the skin at the sides that were exposed to the rain. We had our lunch. Me 'n Xiu Feng had the claypot laksa. It was so hot both in spicyness and in temperature. Xiu Feng cautioned me on touchined the ckaypot, but I forgot and touched the handles. The tips of my thumbs got scalded as I yelled in pain. Was embarrassing. Well we then headed over to Jurong East, where we would begin our evangelizing. Xiu Feng, Isabelle and I were in one group, and this kind and funny lady came to join us. She introduced herself [Pei Ling] and she turned out to be very out-going.
We were supposed to evangelize in pairs or threes, so we split in two. We were deciding who to go with Xiu Feng and who to go with Pei Ling. In the end I went with Pei Ling, and it turned out to be a good choice.
We were to stop people and ask them to do a survey for us, asking about their life-styles. We got kicked aside a couple of times, and I was beginning to feel rather discouraged. But soon God gave us His blessing and guided a couple of people to us. Pei Ling started sharing, and stuff like that. I was at the side listening, as I didnt have the experience to start. She was a Chemistry teacher at a Secondary School. But she said she didnt want to teach me as I had told her I always talked in class. =D
Lol she could link the four Christian laws to Physics. She was saying, "there are four laws, like there are three laws in Physics...bla bla bla" I stiffled a laugh and walked away. She also laughed and carried on talking to those people. We were standing around there for one and a half hour. But time flew by amazingly fast. She had also let me ask questions once.
The church's now thinking of making that a regular basis thing, since all of us enjoyed ourselves so much. If it were true that they were making it a regular basis thing, then Xiu Feng and Pei Ling can definitely count me in for more! I really enjoyed myself. Really I did. I'm definitely going back there again. It was great fun.
I had told my grandma to wake me up at 7, so I would have enough time to get there. But she forgot and I woke up at 8. I jumped out of bed, eyes stinging from the tiredness. I asked my grandma what happened, and she said she forgot, and sorry. I went back to my room all pissed and upset. I was so looking forward to going to Xiu Feng's church. Furthermore, Isabelle was gonna be there. I was sitting on my bed all upset, and tears started running down my cheeks. Then I thought, I could get there in time if I hurried. I mean, no point sitting there and getting all upset, rite? So I changed, took my Bible and ran to the station.
Got there in bout 30 mins. I was rather late, but Isabelle's dad was there to save the day. He brought us there in his car. Thank God for not making us late.
So we worshipped and listened to the sermon. The pastor was rather funny and Isabelle and I kept laughing. It was raining when we got outside, so the three of us crammed under one small umbrella. Xiu Feng was in the middle so she was as dry as the desert while me and Isabelle were soaked to the skin at the sides that were exposed to the rain. We had our lunch. Me 'n Xiu Feng had the claypot laksa. It was so hot both in spicyness and in temperature. Xiu Feng cautioned me on touchined the ckaypot, but I forgot and touched the handles. The tips of my thumbs got scalded as I yelled in pain. Was embarrassing. Well we then headed over to Jurong East, where we would begin our evangelizing. Xiu Feng, Isabelle and I were in one group, and this kind and funny lady came to join us. She introduced herself [Pei Ling] and she turned out to be very out-going.
We were supposed to evangelize in pairs or threes, so we split in two. We were deciding who to go with Xiu Feng and who to go with Pei Ling. In the end I went with Pei Ling, and it turned out to be a good choice.
We were to stop people and ask them to do a survey for us, asking about their life-styles. We got kicked aside a couple of times, and I was beginning to feel rather discouraged. But soon God gave us His blessing and guided a couple of people to us. Pei Ling started sharing, and stuff like that. I was at the side listening, as I didnt have the experience to start. She was a Chemistry teacher at a Secondary School. But she said she didnt want to teach me as I had told her I always talked in class. =D
Lol she could link the four Christian laws to Physics. She was saying, "there are four laws, like there are three laws in Physics...bla bla bla" I stiffled a laugh and walked away. She also laughed and carried on talking to those people. We were standing around there for one and a half hour. But time flew by amazingly fast. She had also let me ask questions once.
The church's now thinking of making that a regular basis thing, since all of us enjoyed ourselves so much. If it were true that they were making it a regular basis thing, then Xiu Feng and Pei Ling can definitely count me in for more! I really enjoyed myself. Really I did. I'm definitely going back there again. It was great fun.
michi ]|[ 18:39
Saturday, July 10
Home sweet home! Just returned from my grandma's house. The house was totally modern. I'm jealous. My mom was too. She was saying she wants to do up our house to look like that. haha.
Oh, did I miss those 3 dogs. It was so long since I saw them that I mistook Pebbles for Tobey. The last time I saw Tobey he was only a little innocent puppy. But now when he saw us he was like a hurricane, running and barking all over the place. Pebbles used to be bigger than Tobey, now Tobey overgrew her like crazy. And he looked like a girl, so my mom was saying. haha. She too got them mixed up.
And Charlotte. Last time I saw her she acting like a mad dog when she saw us too. Now? So quiet, walking around the living room quietly. My mom's middle name was Charlotte too, I guess they named the dog after her. I dont think Mom was flattered though. My mom was saying how gentle Charlotte was. She was going "ahem ahem". Lol. I was going -___-" aw Mom.
Gab and I were looking through this photo album of us when we were just babies. We looked to blur and fat. Mom told me that she had nearly named me Raphaelle, instead of Michelle. And we had come out the old-fashioned way, the cutting up of the stomach. If we were to come out naturally, I'd come out first. Then I'd be Gabrielle. "Head angel", so it seems. Cool beans. But she doesnt have any reasons for naming me Michelle instead of Raphaelle. And my mom was my dad's first girlfriend. Cool man. Lasted for so long. And his glasses were like, HUGE. I was going, "hey, nice shades, Dad!" Lol. I saw a snapshot of my mom when she was expecting us. It was practically double the size of a normal pregnant-with-one Mom-to-be. Totally cool.
Oh, did I miss those 3 dogs. It was so long since I saw them that I mistook Pebbles for Tobey. The last time I saw Tobey he was only a little innocent puppy. But now when he saw us he was like a hurricane, running and barking all over the place. Pebbles used to be bigger than Tobey, now Tobey overgrew her like crazy. And he looked like a girl, so my mom was saying. haha. She too got them mixed up.
And Charlotte. Last time I saw her she acting like a mad dog when she saw us too. Now? So quiet, walking around the living room quietly. My mom's middle name was Charlotte too, I guess they named the dog after her. I dont think Mom was flattered though. My mom was saying how gentle Charlotte was. She was going "ahem ahem". Lol. I was going -___-" aw Mom.
Gab and I were looking through this photo album of us when we were just babies. We looked to blur and fat. Mom told me that she had nearly named me Raphaelle, instead of Michelle. And we had come out the old-fashioned way, the cutting up of the stomach. If we were to come out naturally, I'd come out first. Then I'd be Gabrielle. "Head angel", so it seems. Cool beans. But she doesnt have any reasons for naming me Michelle instead of Raphaelle. And my mom was my dad's first girlfriend. Cool man. Lasted for so long. And his glasses were like, HUGE. I was going, "hey, nice shades, Dad!" Lol. I saw a snapshot of my mom when she was expecting us. It was practically double the size of a normal pregnant-with-one Mom-to-be. Totally cool.
michi ]|[ 21:30
Geez. The poem's bout as long as my arm. Maybe I should've kept it short and sweet, like what Daniel said. I think I was really too bored then.
Sigh Mom came in and nagged like crazy to- what else? -s t u d y. Dont feel like doing anything now. Its my weekend man. Let's not spoil it with studies, shall we? =)
Gonna go to me grandma's house tonite. Yay. I heard its being renovated. I wanna see the new-and-improved house I love so much. And my aunt's dogs. Havent seen them for so long now. Dear Pebbles, dear Charlotte, and dear Tobey. haha. Miss them so much.
I told Alson bout my poster bein' on the wall of the Humans classroom. He was going, "cheh like that only? I thought it was something huge. My art pieces always get chosen de ma, no big deal". I felt like decking him. His ego ar.. Argh. I felt like telling him to be careful, or one day his ego will blow up in his face. I was rite when I said he gotta big ego. Couldn't have been more right. Alson ar Alson.. You're lucky if I dont strangle you.
And Daniel found my neos!! YAY!! Miss them so much too. haha. I'm so happie.. Finally got them back after about 4-5 months "mourning" after them after thinking they got lost in the mail. Yay..
And my tongue hurts like crazy. Aw man. Got distracted by Sherlyn's Hong Chin while I was eating yesterday. Now it hurts something fierce and there aint no plaster for tongues. I cant eat properly too, thanks to my braces. *whimper*
Sigh Mom came in and nagged like crazy to- what else? -s t u d y. Dont feel like doing anything now. Its my weekend man. Let's not spoil it with studies, shall we? =)
Gonna go to me grandma's house tonite. Yay. I heard its being renovated. I wanna see the new-and-improved house I love so much. And my aunt's dogs. Havent seen them for so long now. Dear Pebbles, dear Charlotte, and dear Tobey. haha. Miss them so much.
I told Alson bout my poster bein' on the wall of the Humans classroom. He was going, "cheh like that only? I thought it was something huge. My art pieces always get chosen de ma, no big deal". I felt like decking him. His ego ar.. Argh. I felt like telling him to be careful, or one day his ego will blow up in his face. I was rite when I said he gotta big ego. Couldn't have been more right. Alson ar Alson.. You're lucky if I dont strangle you.
And Daniel found my neos!! YAY!! Miss them so much too. haha. I'm so happie.. Finally got them back after about 4-5 months "mourning" after them after thinking they got lost in the mail. Yay..
And my tongue hurts like crazy. Aw man. Got distracted by Sherlyn's Hong Chin while I was eating yesterday. Now it hurts something fierce and there aint no plaster for tongues. I cant eat properly too, thanks to my braces. *whimper*
michi ]|[ 15:57
Friday, July 9
A Weeping Sky
A weeping sky, overthrown by grief
Banishing all colour and light
Plans ruined, people looking up in disblief
Muttering that storms are too much of a trite
A weeping sky, all darkness reign over
Depriving the earth of warmth and heat
Having the character of a rover
Making a scenery portrait incomplete
A weeping sky, ample with sorrow
Leaving a rainbow as a tribute
Not promising sunshine of the morrow
With warmth and heat to contribute
A weeping sky, complete with torment
Sweeping over with harsh and biting gust
As if releasing anger it had to vent
Never experiencing something that robust
A weeping sky, thunder and lightning crash
Giving no mercy, and tears you'll find
Strikes of lightning came and went in a flash
Leaving glumness as your state of mind
A weeping sky, relieving soon after
Giving everyone a sense of delight
Filling the skies again with laughter
With new plans and programmes to excite
A weeping sky, overflowing with loud thunder
Shocking little ones, who sniffle and cry
Using their blanket a source for them to hide under
Greeting them with tears and a soft sigh
A weeping sky, confining everyone indoors
Sealing groans and frowns on faces
Destroying good moods that were once yours
Making you pout cos you cant go to places
A weeping sky, always in a rut
Shoving blue sky out of the way
Causing you to keep doors and windows shut
Influencing you to face a spoilt day
A weeping sky, forever dark and gloomy
Welcoming thunder and lightning
Some trapped elsewhere not so roomy
Exploding loud noises ever so frightening
A weeping sky, matching some moods
Those who are down and out
Causing pains in old people includes
Which prevent them from getting about
A weeping sky, flooding floors with tears
Making those who rush slip and fall
As calm and harmless as it appears
Leaving you on the floor, muddy and all
A weeping sky, coldness sweeps in
Staining the ground with mud as smut
Big drops of tears appear from within
It always seems horrid, but...
A weeping sky, may not always be bad
A weeping sky, can cause some smiles
A weeping sky, may not make you feel sad
A weeping sky, will soon be gone for miles
This poem I made bout "A Weeping Sky". I hope you like it cos I'm prouda it! haha =)
A weeping sky, overthrown by grief
Banishing all colour and light
Plans ruined, people looking up in disblief
Muttering that storms are too much of a trite
A weeping sky, all darkness reign over
Depriving the earth of warmth and heat
Having the character of a rover
Making a scenery portrait incomplete
A weeping sky, ample with sorrow
Leaving a rainbow as a tribute
Not promising sunshine of the morrow
With warmth and heat to contribute
A weeping sky, complete with torment
Sweeping over with harsh and biting gust
As if releasing anger it had to vent
Never experiencing something that robust
A weeping sky, thunder and lightning crash
Giving no mercy, and tears you'll find
Strikes of lightning came and went in a flash
Leaving glumness as your state of mind
A weeping sky, relieving soon after
Giving everyone a sense of delight
Filling the skies again with laughter
With new plans and programmes to excite
A weeping sky, overflowing with loud thunder
Shocking little ones, who sniffle and cry
Using their blanket a source for them to hide under
Greeting them with tears and a soft sigh
A weeping sky, confining everyone indoors
Sealing groans and frowns on faces
Destroying good moods that were once yours
Making you pout cos you cant go to places
A weeping sky, always in a rut
Shoving blue sky out of the way
Causing you to keep doors and windows shut
Influencing you to face a spoilt day
A weeping sky, forever dark and gloomy
Welcoming thunder and lightning
Some trapped elsewhere not so roomy
Exploding loud noises ever so frightening
A weeping sky, matching some moods
Those who are down and out
Causing pains in old people includes
Which prevent them from getting about
A weeping sky, flooding floors with tears
Making those who rush slip and fall
As calm and harmless as it appears
Leaving you on the floor, muddy and all
A weeping sky, coldness sweeps in
Staining the ground with mud as smut
Big drops of tears appear from within
It always seems horrid, but...
A weeping sky, may not always be bad
A weeping sky, can cause some smiles
A weeping sky, may not make you feel sad
A weeping sky, will soon be gone for miles
This poem I made bout "A Weeping Sky". I hope you like it cos I'm prouda it! haha =)
michi ]|[ 17:38
Mmm. Went back straight after school. Met Jon, and accompained him to Tiong for a walk. Spotted Cheng Ho, another guy who wasnt facing me so I couldnt see the face, and Benjamin Goh. Benjamin was jeering and stuff like that, mistaking that we were there on a date. Sheesh. Its already Sec 3. Havent those three grown up?
Sigh why is my hair soooo short?? I want my normal length back. Was I stupid or what, thinking of cutting it short. Ah, Sherlyn, dun start. You say that one more time and I'm gonna start rearranging your face. =D It still gives me the giggles. Man, my funny bone was tickled sore at Learn@Fairfield. I laughed like I never did before. Esp trying to laugh in silence. No laughing matter I tell you. No pun intended. Okay it is officially comfirmed - I'm sooo lame.. >.<
Sigh why is my hair soooo short?? I want my normal length back. Was I stupid or what, thinking of cutting it short. Ah, Sherlyn, dun start. You say that one more time and I'm gonna start rearranging your face. =D It still gives me the giggles. Man, my funny bone was tickled sore at Learn@Fairfield. I laughed like I never did before. Esp trying to laugh in silence. No laughing matter I tell you. No pun intended. Okay it is officially comfirmed - I'm sooo lame.. >.<
michi ]|[ 16:15
Wednesday, July 7
Had ta stay back for some Jian Bao thing. Took about 3 hours trying to finish up ten articles. Ten. But its ok, at least I finished it. And now I feel so free. Got rid of the heavy burden, quoted from Sherlyn.
It was tough, trying to concentrate and listen to Sherlyn's laming at the same time. Ended up listening to Sherlyn's laming more than homework. I'm certain, she was trying to kill me. She kept making me laugh like crazy, and since we were in Learn@Fairfield, we couldnt utter a sound. It was something like a library. It was torture, knowing you have to laugh but you just cant. She kept laming around and I laughed as noiselessly as possible till I cried. Tears were practically welling up in my eyes. Couldnt breathe from the laughing after that. And her lame riddles. Gad. I feel like strangling her everytime she gives us the lame answer. I mean, it was toally lame. lol. But fun. It was fun. Its still funny though, the finger exercise. LOL. =P
I'm not done with Sherlyn's lameness. lol. She told me to go to the lockers with her, and she took out her Maths textbook from it. She cradled it in one arm and searched her locker for yet another book. Thinking it was her English textbook that she was looking for, I reached out and pointed to it. She told me it wasnt what she was looking for, but her Maths textbook. I shifted my gaze from her locker to her face, hoping she was joking with me. Apparently not. I reached out and lifted her Maths textbook, which was in her arms, and held it up within her eye contact. She said "oh". I was going, Sherlyn!! -___-"
Alite. Hafta do my chinese homework soon. Wa, suddenly so hard-working. lol. I'm scaring myself. I think I said that before. Sounds vaguely familiar. Oh well. I'm lame. But not as lame as someone. Now I'm lame. -_-" I think I've been hanging out with her for too long.
It was tough, trying to concentrate and listen to Sherlyn's laming at the same time. Ended up listening to Sherlyn's laming more than homework. I'm certain, she was trying to kill me. She kept making me laugh like crazy, and since we were in Learn@Fairfield, we couldnt utter a sound. It was something like a library. It was torture, knowing you have to laugh but you just cant. She kept laming around and I laughed as noiselessly as possible till I cried. Tears were practically welling up in my eyes. Couldnt breathe from the laughing after that. And her lame riddles. Gad. I feel like strangling her everytime she gives us the lame answer. I mean, it was toally lame. lol. But fun. It was fun. Its still funny though, the finger exercise. LOL. =P
I'm not done with Sherlyn's lameness. lol. She told me to go to the lockers with her, and she took out her Maths textbook from it. She cradled it in one arm and searched her locker for yet another book. Thinking it was her English textbook that she was looking for, I reached out and pointed to it. She told me it wasnt what she was looking for, but her Maths textbook. I shifted my gaze from her locker to her face, hoping she was joking with me. Apparently not. I reached out and lifted her Maths textbook, which was in her arms, and held it up within her eye contact. She said "oh". I was going, Sherlyn!! -___-"
Alite. Hafta do my chinese homework soon. Wa, suddenly so hard-working. lol. I'm scaring myself. I think I said that before. Sounds vaguely familiar. Oh well. I'm lame. But not as lame as someone. Now I'm lame. -_-" I think I've been hanging out with her for too long.
michi ]|[ 19:27
Tuesday, July 6
Ignorance is sheer bliss. How true.
If only they didnt insist on meeting him. He had already said, he had his girlfriend with him. But for me they wanted to go. I cant blame them for that. But if they didnt see what they did and conveyed everything to me, at least I wouldnt feel to hurt right now.
And Isabelle wrote a letter to him in my name. Not only did that embarrass Daniel, it also embarrassed me. In the letter were words, words I wouldnt even think of writing.
Never mind. What is done cannot be undone. What is this man. And I was the last to find out. As usual.
If only they didnt insist on meeting him. He had already said, he had his girlfriend with him. But for me they wanted to go. I cant blame them for that. But if they didnt see what they did and conveyed everything to me, at least I wouldnt feel to hurt right now.
And Isabelle wrote a letter to him in my name. Not only did that embarrass Daniel, it also embarrassed me. In the letter were words, words I wouldnt even think of writing.
Never mind. What is done cannot be undone. What is this man. And I was the last to find out. As usual.
michi ]|[ 23:04
Monday, July 5
Gab went to Orchard with her friends, leaving me alone at home. lol. Never mind, I guess its tit-for-tat that I left her alone on Saturday. Sian, all I did was play the guitar yesterday. I finally remembered how to play "My Heart Goes On - Celine Dion", taught to me by Benjamin. I forgot where I put the notes. Good ol' Gab knew, but didnt tell me "because I didnt ask". But never mind lar, the fact that I can finally play the song contents me. =) [although its a little pathetic that I can only play one song. The rest I forgot le ma =D]
I wish I had someone to teach my guitar. I mean, since Benjamin and I werent on good terms anymore, I stopped playing. Only recently that I picked up my guitar and ran my fingers over the strings. I sat on my bed and plucked a couple of strings, then picked it up and set it on my lap. It was then that I realised it was so long since I had held a guitar. I looooove my guitar. lol. My dad had got it for me without getting a teacher first, knowing I have an interest in guitar and drums. But its supposed to be self-learn, or to get a friend to teach me. haha. Oops. I wanted drums. They're cool, but dad says they are a tad too big and noisy. Tsk. Wasted. Drums would've been cool. =)
Alite, what am I doing, talking about guitar and drums? Maybe I'm really too deprived company. haha.
Anw, Daniel is telling me about his Herbalist experimentation. Rather interesting. He's telling me about different types of things that can be used as cures for sickness.
Okay, what am I laming about. I gotta go do my poster for Humans and self-portrait for art soon, or Owster and Mdm Lim will fry me. =)
I wish I had someone to teach my guitar. I mean, since Benjamin and I werent on good terms anymore, I stopped playing. Only recently that I picked up my guitar and ran my fingers over the strings. I sat on my bed and plucked a couple of strings, then picked it up and set it on my lap. It was then that I realised it was so long since I had held a guitar. I looooove my guitar. lol. My dad had got it for me without getting a teacher first, knowing I have an interest in guitar and drums. But its supposed to be self-learn, or to get a friend to teach me. haha. Oops. I wanted drums. They're cool, but dad says they are a tad too big and noisy. Tsk. Wasted. Drums would've been cool. =)
Alite, what am I doing, talking about guitar and drums? Maybe I'm really too deprived company. haha.
Anw, Daniel is telling me about his Herbalist experimentation. Rather interesting. He's telling me about different types of things that can be used as cures for sickness.
Okay, what am I laming about. I gotta go do my poster for Humans and self-portrait for art soon, or Owster and Mdm Lim will fry me. =)
michi ]|[ 13:14
Sunday, July 4
I'm soooo bored. I'm in no mood to do my art or Humans. Steals all my energy. >.< Mdm Lim probably wont like it anw. All my confidence is gone. Anw..
Tomorrow's Youth Day. No school. What am I going to do then? Geez. I'm so bored I almost wish there was school. Been thinking about him the entire day. Sheesh. I gotta stop that. Anw, I wish I was with him now. I wish I hadnt made that awful mistake on hating him, avoiding him, shunning him. Then things wouldnt be like this right now. I wish I could just be with him tomorrow. We dont have to be together or anything. I just wanna see him. As friends. Sigh. And here is Beaver Ow telling me his wisdom tooth hurts.
I'm probably meeting him for lunch on Weds. I dont know if its next Weds or next, next Weds. I wonder what I'd do or feel when I see him. I just hope I dont break down in front of him upon seeing him. I probably wouldnt be able to handle a one-on-one lunch with him. I'll ask Isabelle along. That will lessen the tension. But it depends if she wants to. Oh well.
Everytime I shower or before I sleep I'd think of him. Every hour I'd think of him at least once. And all those thoughts I'd keep them, store them, and wait till dark or when I get into the shower, to pour everything out in the form of tears. I'm not going to cry in front of Sherlyn or Xiu Feng or Isabelle or Gabrielle anymore. I know it must be really awkward for them and it was rather embarrassing for me. I dont want to put them in an awkward position. And Gab ar, dont be crazy, ok? All of us are friends. You are always quiet so we talk among ourselves. If you dont like that we can stop. No problem. I mean, I know how you feel. Trust me, I've been there. ;-)
Tomorrow's Youth Day. No school. What am I going to do then? Geez. I'm so bored I almost wish there was school. Been thinking about him the entire day. Sheesh. I gotta stop that. Anw, I wish I was with him now. I wish I hadnt made that awful mistake on hating him, avoiding him, shunning him. Then things wouldnt be like this right now. I wish I could just be with him tomorrow. We dont have to be together or anything. I just wanna see him. As friends. Sigh. And here is Beaver Ow telling me his wisdom tooth hurts.
I'm probably meeting him for lunch on Weds. I dont know if its next Weds or next, next Weds. I wonder what I'd do or feel when I see him. I just hope I dont break down in front of him upon seeing him. I probably wouldnt be able to handle a one-on-one lunch with him. I'll ask Isabelle along. That will lessen the tension. But it depends if she wants to. Oh well.
Everytime I shower or before I sleep I'd think of him. Every hour I'd think of him at least once. And all those thoughts I'd keep them, store them, and wait till dark or when I get into the shower, to pour everything out in the form of tears. I'm not going to cry in front of Sherlyn or Xiu Feng or Isabelle or Gabrielle anymore. I know it must be really awkward for them and it was rather embarrassing for me. I dont want to put them in an awkward position. And Gab ar, dont be crazy, ok? All of us are friends. You are always quiet so we talk among ourselves. If you dont like that we can stop. No problem. I mean, I know how you feel. Trust me, I've been there. ;-)
michi ]|[ 18:53
Hey Gabby. Why think like that? haha. You are not and extra and never will be. I'm sure Sherlyn agrees with me. Right, Sherlyn? Dont worry, Gab. You're being too paranoid. =) Dont worry.
I just read s0me0ne's blog. Agh. I'm going nuts soon. I cant take it anymore. I need to know how to walk, which road to take. I really need help. I used to be able to talk out everything here. But now he knows this link. How am I supposed to write everything out with no qualms? I dont want to upset anyone. I'm going crazy... I really am... I need help soon... I need to know where to go now... I really do... Agh...
I just read s0me0ne's blog. Agh. I'm going nuts soon. I cant take it anymore. I need to know how to walk, which road to take. I really need help. I used to be able to talk out everything here. But now he knows this link. How am I supposed to write everything out with no qualms? I dont want to upset anyone. I'm going crazy... I really am... I need help soon... I need to know where to go now... I really do... Agh...
michi ]|[ 13:04
Friday, July 2
I found out I had lost my Physics workbook. Sherlyn ended up lending me money so I could get a new one and aviod a booking. Xiu Feng got it for me, and never did I realise we'd get ripped off. Normal price was less that $2, but Xiu Fend had paid $6.05, of her own money. The stupid bookshop auntie. Went into class, and got commented by Mr Ong for buying a new one after losing it. After school I lost my paper file. I combed every class I was in today, Maths, R&D, Chinese and Humans, but couldnt find it anywhere. I cant believe how distracted I was today. After that, I turned down Xiu Feng's invitation to lunch, not feeling like going anywhere just to hang out. Came home, went to my room, took a bath, and came to the computer.
Er.. Thats it for today I guess.. If there're more things to say I'll update later. Oh yes, gonna go to Airport tomorrow with Sherlyn. =) Can get my thoughts sorted out then. Yay.
Er.. Thats it for today I guess.. If there're more things to say I'll update later. Oh yes, gonna go to Airport tomorrow with Sherlyn. =) Can get my thoughts sorted out then. Yay.
michi ]|[ 14:55